the hawk alights on the tree
after sweeping overhead
a quartet of crows caw
alerting everything below
to the hawk’s presence
not enough birds for a murder
but maybe enough to prevent one
floating and leaving no trace
the hawk alights on the tree
after sweeping overhead
a quartet of crows caw
alerting everything below
to the hawk’s presence
not enough birds for a murder
but maybe enough to prevent one
red autumn eye
looks southward now
through heavy coat
hard to feel its gaze
but the eye lingers over me
like twilight spiderwebs in my hair
counting out my time
dawn by dawn
i set my feet upon the earth
send down roots
among sycamores
among eucalyptus
i can stand a cold morning or two
yet
i haven’t seen a paperboy
in years
/forgive the sexist terminology
i am aware of it and i’m working on it/
i haven’t heard the
satisfying smack
of atrocities landing in my driveway
or my neighbor’s driveway
my neighbors drive away
my neighbors driven away
i do not read the news
still, it reaches inside my chest
night time hands
separating organs from fatty membranes
autumn red eye
roll south
take these shuddering breaths with you
take these neighbors
who drive away
who don’t read the paper
roll south
i have been taking swimming
lessons because
i want to learn how to float
i picked an instructor
with a lot of experience
in the water but
i think
the anchor wasn’t the best
choice
the millstone turns heavy
powered by blood
torrents of thick red
jam coagulating where it pools
and there’s no grist to grind
only chaff left
from the threshing floor
but grind it does
the wheel grinds
it is all it knows how to do
and so it turns and grinds
we bake our bread
with rough husk flour
we bake our poor loaves
black on the coals
of our ancestors’ bones
bitter is the crust
with no spot of fat
to grease the pitted stone
that is our only sustenance
and nothing to wash it
down but overflowing glasses of
gall bitter from our own hands
this is our bread
our communion
no silhouette cut by diamonds
no sharp crisp edge of a shadow
you need a cloudless sky
and a summer sun for that
the fog bound star in the sky
gives me a fuzzy edge
vampires don’t cast
reflections in mirrors or shadows
because they lost their souls.
what of my caterpillar-soft double
writhing on the ground
attached at the feet
attached until i float
attached then not at all
what sound does a shadow make
the creaking of bones?
the grinding of teeth?
the paper on paper whisper
of a moth’s wings?
worm on the sidewalk
wriggles and dances, whip crack
thrown to grass safety
seems innocent enough
a holiday display
a single word
with a dozen tiny lights
the word
joy
as seen
from outside
shining in a window
but looking at it
from inside
with the lights turned off
it looks so much like
you
but broken
or stunted at least
if not shattered
this isn’t
a fundamental or cosmic truth
and i’m not reading
anything into the odd bit of
seasonal dyslexia
or the inside/outside holiday dichotomy
it just struck me
is all
and now
the weather report
tonight will be cold
mostly cloudless
the earth will exhale
homeless who do not have
a sleeping bag
or a tent to crawl into
or a car empty of gas but with windows
they will slide
into chambers like bullets
that can’t can’t can’t can’t
penetrate flesh
or tolerance
lucky for them
this is the coast
where the ice age
doesn’t descend
in sheets of actual ice
lucky for them
the weather is mild
lucky for them
lucky
they are lucky
they are knives
seen through windows
turn turn turn up the radio
they cannot cut
if they are sheathed
their cardboard magic spells
their incantations
they will not not not alter this
they will go hungry
they will become hungry ghosts
they will be silent as a vacuum is silent
incision
feels like insight, but–
just a cut
a small leak
everything inside runs out
until nothing’s left
——
how many hearts
how many prayers
balance the scale
the moon is the color of blood
the color of rust
the color of flattened lead
twenty-six stars wink out
who would ever think
such a thing would
[not]
happen
those who ask this question
would find a special
place in hell
if we ever needed
such a place