Poem 20151210

it wasn’t the end
but it was an ending

a significant pause
that turned into
a significant silence

no return to
the easily constructed
papier-mâché future

whimsical joy-filled towers
poorly engineered
made of something thinner than tissue

the first rains damaged them
the last rains
tore them apart

beautiful even in
wet, sodden disrepair

Poem 20151208

colder than normal morning
my breath leaves a trail
in the air
when i find her

–a monarch butterfly–

still
all stillness and perfect
and beautiful
on the ground

i say over and over
“oh no”
as if she can hear me
or respond

when i pick up her
she doesn’t move
or flutter her wings
there is no attempt to escape

i blow warm air over her
willing her to be asleep
stunned by the cold
but no amount of air
from the furnace
that is my lungs
that is my heart
can stir her
brilliant orange wings
her smooth black body

and i take her small death
harder than i have taken
many larger ones

i lay her to rest
near the new plants

Poem 20151205

it builds in the chest and
oddly
the feet
in the ears
and in the hands

a thousand invisible mice
stampeding through your organs

you lose
the ability to foc
us the world reaches you–
when the world reaches you–
noises
through cotton filled
ears

and all you can feel
is your heart
trying to tear itself
out of your chest
and your skin
shifting over your muscles
trying to lift off
the bones
and leave you
a puddle