anatomy lesson (20170611)

i have taken myself
apart like those model kits
you know, the visible man

he had transparent skin
and you could see his skeleton
and organs but not his state
of mind
[though there was a small
pink brain in the tiny skull]

i open up
split in half
my body
an invisible canopic jar
pull out the spleen
the liver
the lungs
put them back
the wrong way
see if the plumbing still
works

leave out the heart
or the brain
you can’t have them both
working at the same time
instinct [which boils down
to what you want
and what you don’t want]
or reason
[but the brain is already
rubbish at that–did you
see the gorilla on the court?]

spleen
who the hell needs that
leave it out
when i shut the lid
on this transparent coffin
this brittle, see-through skin

i have less to worry about
than the visible woman
with her alternate pregnant form

Poem 20150906

like one of those science books
with transparent plates
of the human body

where the first layer has the skin
–always the best
because you can see all the dirty parts
even though it’s usually ugh the guy–

then you peel back a layer
and it’s all muscle
which is still kind of cool

after that
arteries and veins
and viscera
and you keep going
past the nerve tissue
until it’s just bones left

that’s how i imagine you
after peeling off your layers
year after year
getting through the outside
which is pretty damn exciting still
and through your guts
all the way to your bones