it breaks inside you like your bones
and muscles and organs are blown sugar
like that candy you bought
one year when you went to disneyland
–years and years and years ago
when they had paper tickets the color
of crayons–
and that candy was clear like blown glass
always in a swan shape and broke like blown glass
in your mouth
it dissolved
and tasted like nothing so much as
sugar and syrup and summer and not like swan
and that’s how it breaks inside you